2010 was a year of highs and lows..like every year only much worse. There was more drama in my life than anyone would ever want. My anxiety sky-rocketted, my tachycardia got worse, my depression deepened, my faith in God slowly disappeared. I was lying to myself..I was unhappily married, had been for along time, but i had 2 beautiful children and didnt know what to do. I knew what it took to have a successful marriage; I just didn't have it. It doest work without love either...it was beyond complicated and not worth it. God was so important to me and I was letting go of him as I let the stress of what was going on in my life consume me. I didnt talk to anyone..except for random people i was close to online. I kept most of my family and friends out of it. I thought I could go at it alone..so not true! It took alot of love and support from family and friends to get me out of that mess, especially my best friend!
Summer 2010 was the best and worst summer ever!! Im not going to go into detail about my drama or divorce, but I will say that without support Id probably be in a straight jacket lol. Everything almost got nasty with the ex so I unfortunately settled..ended up that i was going to have to anyways. I let my children remain with their father..mostly because it was the house and area they grew up in and around the people they knew their whole life. Its not forever though..just temporary :) I miss my kids terribly, more than I ever thought i could miss anyone, but I cherish and love them that much more. I hate only seeing them every other weekend, but like i said, its only temporary.
The awesome thing about 2010 was on December 17 I married my best friend Julian, the person I should have always been with :) I love this man more than life itself, he's absolutely amazing! He made all the crap I went through tolerable..he was my shoulder to cry on..my absolute best friend :) God certainly blessed me and Julian restored my faith in God. We didnt get to have a wedding like we wanted but we had a beautiful ceremony with the justice of the peace..it was perfect! Yeah i skipped alot of the story but thats because its too personal...just know that I am happy!! FINALLY!!! 2011 will be a better year for me :) the year i start my new life :D
Thank you Lord for giving me a second chance and giving me a good christian husband..you have blessed me beyond anything i could imagine and i am eternally grateful!!!
love & blessings,
Mandee xoxo
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